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| I wish I could see you guys this weekend. Right now I'm in Kentucky, so that's not really possible. We're visiting dad and coming back the day before spring semester starts. He comes home at the end of February. My grandma died the saturday before christmas. It's weird, like nothing has changed. I'm not sure if that's because I feel like she's still around, since I really haven't seen her much for quite a while, especially in the last few months since she got worse and really didn't get out of bed much, or if it's because it's like nothing has changed becuase of how sick she wasn't, she hadn't really been lively for a long time. I feel like a bad person, like I should feel worse because she is dead, but at the same time I think that's silly, since now she's not pained and confused. Seeing her old photos makes me feel close to old age. | | |
| Break was nice, yay for snow. Eleanor, an aunt I didn't know we had, visited. She helps blind kids. My younger cousin John was visiting a girl, which was really weird. To me, he's still a little kid, of course he's actually not much younger than I am, and not he's certainly not little anymore( I remember when I was taller than him). I learned how to crochet. I want to talk to people, but I don't like talking to people. I'm afraid I'll run out of things to say and then we'll be left with that awkward silence. So with the majority of people I talk to I get very antsy and want to end the conversation almost as soon as it starts, but at the same time I want it to continue. I annoy myself. I'm afraid that I will fail in my major, or maybe more so that I'll make it through my classes and fail in actually having a job. I'd like to paint, but I'm not good at painting. My drawing is alright, but I'm stuck in a style that I don't really respect. Duat Vu makes me feel inadequate. I need to take criticism better. I haven't ever been at the top of my art classes, but I'm used to being in the better group. I'm not used to being one of the worst,and I like to think that most of the people have had experience in painting before. Then that would explain why they're so much better, but I won't ask because I'm worried they're all new to painting too. Then they just seem so much better because I suck. | | |
| No art history today, Thank you unforseen technical difficulties. Dad gets home today!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qz7vGW2_5c0 I want to dance on pavement. | | |
| Homecoming is coming up. People are running for king and queen and their startegy is to write their names on every bit of sidewalk they can. I do not think the fact that you can write your name 600 times qualifies you for homecoming queen/king. I was happy when it rained and was all washed away. I'm reading 'The Story of B' by danial quinn (the person who wrote ishmael) which is pretty good. He has a fun take on the genesis story. Every one should watch "Thank You for Smoking" because it is totally awesome. Joe Biden is going to be at jordan valley park tomorrow. I think I'll walk by on my way back from painting. I want to put some of my drawings on facebook/here (because some are of some of you) but I don't have a scanner or any way to get pictures onto the computer. | | |
| We had a male model for the first time (clothed). He did a fun pose in a business shirt, tie, and boxers with a vacuum cleaner, so mixing stereotypical gender roles. He's the most talkative/comfortable model we've had, when he came in he was talking about posing different ways and having theme music (sadly Sean didn't have 'eye of the tiger' on his ipod). I expected him to be a theatre major, but he's actually going into business. I thought of other things to say, but now they've slipped my mind so I'll just leave it at that for now | | |
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